Another one?

I know what you're thinking... "kam? You're back, this fast???" FIRST OF ALL, y'all, another good news, another miracle, I got free 10gb data.

This might not seem much (well, for some of you) but at least it's something! Be grateful!!
So yes that's why I'm back, just to let you people know that wOaH anotha one!!!1!11!!

Been so lucky this month I guess, but right now my body is experiencing some health issues, I won't tell you what's going on but I'm hoping I'll be OK next year anyway.

Wait hold up.
Next year, is in two days. That's crazy.
Do you know what it reminds me of? Black Panther, Avengers: Infinity War. Ohhh man they're not so distant after all.

Alright, that's all. See you guys for one last post, tomorrow. Bye for now!

-Kam with another post comin' atchu

Positively positive

Hey people, what's up?

I'm in the middle of a "limited to no internet crisis" if you're wondering. But all good! I feel like. Blogging doesn't eat up that much data but it's VERY limited so sometimes I'd have to think twice but I'm doing it right now anyway!!

This is kind of related to my plan of saving money so I could buy a new gaming console...
I wished, honestly, for things not to go bad and ruin my entire plan. I have a feeling it might be going downhill slowly right now, but I shouldn't lose hope, I need to think positive.

The plan will go accordingly, sometime in January I will check stores and ask around, to get the cheapest price possible  for the PS Vita slim.
Or for some stupid reason Sony found this and they decided to say "hey we want to give you one for free, 'cause we see you struggling there." HAHAH my imagination is crazy man.

Just think positive, Kam, why is that so hard??
Anyway, I think that's all, like what I said, I have very limited internet right now and I still have to blog more until the new year.
Alright, see you guys later!
Later!
LOL get that reference??

-Kam is struggling heLP

All good

Okay listen I apologize for the lack of posting and I mean it, really. I've been disconnected from blogger for many reasons and could say one of them is because I've been doing a lot of useless craps, like, I told myself this today:

"Happy birthday? This time, be more productive, quit worrying, have good hopes, keep planning.

I do this a lot. HEY SO IT'S ALL GOOD OKAY? Stay alive, survival is number one 'cause you want to see infinity war just so you can cry. wow what an excuse, good for you. you also want a new gaming console, whatever it is though, save money and be patient about it, you'll get one sometime next year. neither of those can happen if you're dead so be good. and YES be more productive, don't just save bookmarks of so many random sites for no reason or save pictures of THE MOST AMAZING TREES for no reason as well you just save those in your flash drive and if it's full you complain about it to yourself and I can tell you it definitely looks so sad from other people's perspective if they come into your room finding out you're talking to your laptop and it doesn't say anything back and that's so sad. but that's okay so just be you have good hopes and stay alive. don't forget also work on the things you care about, no giving up, 'cause it's never gonna happen if you don't do anything about it."

Yes, by "useless craps" I really mean bookmarking websites and, well not saving pictures of the most amazing trees that's just a reference to Dear Evan Hansen, I was just saving/downloading game consoles pics. Different angles, colors, limited editions, craps like those. Useles am I right?

If I wanna be honest I don't think any of my friends IF I HAD ANY knows about DEH. I'm just so lonely. I just wish I have someone who thinks the way I do, same sense of humor and stuffs. Would be great. 'Cause then they can understand me, the way I think, my jokes and references, memes, all those, and we'd have a great time.

Good news: miracle happens, and after calculating everything, I thought I could save just enough for a PS Vita in 6 months. But this special day of D28 turned out to be exactly special. I got some money, and this could really boost the amount of money I've collected, so I won't have to wait for too long to get my hands on a PS Vita.

I was really being patient and planning to be more patient, but I got rewarded so soon. Oh thank God for this. I suddenly love the world, I can't wait to check stores and ask around to get the cheapest price for it. Just thinking of holding the PS Vita gives tingly feelings down my spine. I'm so ready, just need to save a few more. I can estimate the time of buying, next year, and it's either on February or March.

So heck yes I am excited, happy, and grateful of what happened.
And I guess that's all I want to say, see y'all next time... maybe tomorrow!
Bye bye.

-Kam is feeling grateful as hecC

2K18's D28

FIRST OF ALL
THIS IS VERY LATE

But hey, happy 2K18's D28 peeps!
Also, happy holidays and happy new year, too late and too early I guess WHO CARES! :D

I really don't know tbh, I just had to do this real quick.
Have a good life!

-Kam

Whatever the heck the post title is

Heeeyyyyy sup guys

Ahh sorry I've been gone a long time, dunno.
I'm blogging with my phone again, cause, well, firefox is having problems handling google accounts.
Let's not get into too much detail there! Hi! So I'm back!

I'm feeling confused though, like I have no hope, lol idk, shouldn't worry too much cause everything's gonna be just ok.
Life.. uh... finds a way. Am I right?!

Let's start with some obvious things, well AN obvious thing, STAR WARS THE LAST JEDI!!!! YUP.
I've seen it, and though some people might not agree with me, but, a lot others will, The Last Jedi was incredible.
I loved it.

It's like a thrilling ride. An unexpected journey. Okay just watch it if you haven't.
Also I went all the way from Stormpilot to Kylux. HAHAHAH not that I don't ship Stormpilot anymore but HAHAHAHAH.

Another thing, birthday, yay birthday, in a few days, hm yes hmm yes yes.
I have a feeling I won't be getting much, tbh, and, I don't know, this doesn't help anything. I want both a freaking PS Vita Slim and a 2DS XL.

Cuz u know, if u wanna buy me one I'd be very thankful of your existence. Oh yeah I wish someone would buy me either one. Or I'll buy both, maybe, but I don't have much like. Like. Like. But I don't want someone to help me with buying it you know the payment, I'd rather get some money from them and then buying it myself without them knowing so there's no "oh some of the money that bought this was once belong to me so technically this could be mine so let me borrow it"

Wth.

Well I guess just buy one that interests me more than the other then, save more money till I have enough for the other one AND THEN I'LL HAVE BOTH a vita and a 2ds in some months to ten years gap whatever the heck-

Okay I'm done.
Just enjoy life and the things you have while they still exist and the people you have while they're still around.

Okay bye now.

-Kam

Why?

Sorry you guys, i delay the infinity war trailer shots reaction thing. It will be here though but not anytime soon.

I want to talk.
I want to ask.

Why?
Why can't i talk to other people like other people?
Why can't i interact and communicate well like other people?
I always imagine doing everything a lot harder because of this. Including reaching my dreams and, living.

When i talk to other people...
Do i get nervous? No.
Do i get anxious? At times, yes, when i feel like i did something wrong or awkward.
I just...
I can't come up with things to talk about or say something fast enough to actually talk well to make them want to talk to me again because i can't start a conversation for goodness' sake.

I guess i do get nervous that's why my brain just can't. Can't think of a verbal response. Just. Can't.

Do i want to talk to other people? Yes! I really really do if i know how to do it just right.
And on one side, i have to say this, although i really hate me for this and i really hate the word. I'm shy, KIND OF, not so much.
I WANT to change, i want to work my life out, i want to get rid of my shyness forever, can't act well with it right?

I want to let everyone know also, i'm ashamed of being shy, weird i know, but i'm serious. I want to be able to fully express myself like other people.

Surely i'll need help with all of these but, i need to talk with other people, and try doing better.
But where can i get in life when i can't even open up, talk about these things to other people??

Mushroom. Shitake mushroom.

Do you hear me? No, you don't. I don't speak loud enough.

I'm trying to reach out. If you see this, help me.

-Kam

There was an idea

"In time, you will know what it's like to lose."
Y'ALL AVENGERS INFINITY WAR TRAILER IS HEEERE

It was out, finally, 2 days ago, on November 29th, 2017.
I'M SO READY FOR IT BUT NOT REALLY.

Okay I'm assuming you've seen it I mean WHO THE HECK HASN'T. If for some reason you haven't seen it then what the hell go see it now link here.
Or maybe you're too hyped you want to see the trailer again and try to find some things that you missed watching it the first time.

"Feeling the air"

Hey what is up people?!

AAAYY THE 28TH OF NOVEMBAAAH

I've been kind of enjoying life hahahahah no I mean just a little.
(It's actually enjoying a game)

And I'm doing a project. My own, not worth talking about. BUT it envolves possibly helping other people.
Why, "possibly"? Because I'm not sure if I'm actually helping or not, lol.
???
But hopefully, yeah, some people will come and thank me maybe.
Just enjoy my work okay??

I have nothing else to do I feel like.

Give me an ANSWER

Hey people, what's up?

It's time for some THEORIES!1!1!!!1
Kind of.

First of all, out of topic, I saw Justice League, and lemme say it: It's not bad, I liked it.
I can promise everyone that from now on I will be watching all of future DCEU movies, hopefully.
That's just so wrong lol, "promise" and "hopefully" WELL hopefully I can keep my promise.

Oh there are two post credits scene so don't miss those!

So I watched The Good Doctor...
All 7 released episodes of it.
And now I have a really deep thought that I can't get off my head.

Knowledge

Hey sup y'all!?

Alright so Justice League comes out in a few days here.

So should I stay or should I go?
I mean should I watc- WHAT AM I TALKING ABOUT OF COurse I'm gonna see it!
I mean I'm gonna see "IT" so bye lol nevermind I don't think it's still playing in cinemas near me.
I n  c i n e m a s  n e a r  y o u

I gotta be honest, I have only a little bit of DC knowledge. Since I started liking superhero and comic stuffs few years ago, this is okay right? I grew up with Naruto manga and anime lol, and also K-POP boybands, well, I was attached to one.

f u t u r e

Hello depressed people what is up?
I'm sorry.

OH COME ON JUST FACE THE TRUTH ALRIGHT.
But don't just stay there, rise for some change!! You know it sucks but it can get better!
Who? Pennywise?
NO, frENd it's LIFE! Life can get better, if you make it happen. 

Awh noice, wise messages right at the beginning of the post. What even is this anymore? Why am I like this? :P

DemoDOGS

Hey people what's up?
My mouse is broken, can't exactly use this laptop properly without it, I'm a mouse-keyboard balanced user ya know...

What even is that?

I won't be using formats on this one, sorry this one won't be my "usual me".

WAKANDA

Henlo internet.
I'm not DaNiEL HowELL.
Dw it says "Henlo" not regular "Hello."

So, what is up PEOPLE?? The SKy OR THe CeILing??
I apologize.

So now that I saw Thor: Ragnarok. I'm very excited for Black Panther.
And Avengers: Infinity War, of course. Can't wait for the teaser/trailer.
You HAVE to see Black Panther's trailer, honestly, go see it it's amazing I swear Wakanda and everything, OML. Like, the vibes, the music choice, WAKANDA.

Pardon my imagination

Dear Evan Hansen,
Wrong.

Lol hi peeps

Let's talk.
Stranger Things 2 just came out (of the closet? Lol nvm) buttttt I haven't seen it cuz I ordered this Stranger Things t-shirt that will probs arrive in a couple of days so I gotta wait!

I watched Thor: Ragnarok and let me tell you THIS ISN'T A LET DOWN instead, Taika Waititi brought us one of the funniest Marvel movies but don't worry this doesn't mean it's bad you won't be disappointed. IT'S JUST FRIGGIN AMAZING, I enjoyed watching it, I loved it, I wanna watch it again. The jokes are all on point and just perfect! Everyone did a great job!

And for those saying Tessa Thompson is gonna be bad, DING DONG YOU'RE WRONG, me and a lot other people say she slayed the movie. SHOW STEALER!

It's true that the movie is mostly improvised and this makes me excited for the gag reel, like, imagine the cast goofing around too much, it'll just be PURE GOLD.

One more thing to talk about.
Dear Evan Hansen.
Hello dear fans I am pretty new in the fandom hi hi hi, great timing right, Ben Platt is having his last performance on Nov 19 and I've just joined in WOW.
I'm gonna cry how the heck am I supposed to se DEH live on broadway with Ben still as Evan while we're a million worlds apart??? AMERICA EXBLAIN I'M CONFUUSHE
TICKETS UNTIL LATE DECEMBER ARE ALL SOLD OUT

Just think, okay, my birthday, on the 28th... hey parents I wanna fly to New York I wanna see this musical...
HOW IS THAT GONNA WORK???

I can only imagine.
Hey there Kam how are you? We can see you're very desperate, and you want to see Ben Platt in Dear Evan Hansen... here's flight ticket and just ONE seat for the show have fuuun!! And wow wow you love acting? We're pretty sure you want to see Ben in person too maybe learn a little bit of this and that. Oh and also Kevin Feige hired you, you'll be flying to Georgia after that.
Hah, right.

So, yeah, see you next time.
-Kam is waiting for a miracle

INSPIRATIONS O YEA

Protip: Please be soft and neat, don't cry, craft!
Lying makes you go to hell.

I'm sorry let me continue UHM- move, on.

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii peeps what the hecc is uuupp??
I'm not gonna take the joke opportunity, the "the sky" or "the ceiling" answer. LOL.
Been there done that.
So hey, October... FUN! Halloween and stuff! BUT WHAT IS MORE EXCITING??? Thor: Ragnarok, Stranger Things S2, DnP SPOOKY WEEK, and a bunch mooree!!!!!!
So let's talk...
About something else.

Come back

I am in agony.

For weeks now, or even months, I CAN'T FIND MY STAR WARS T-SHIRT.

I swear if I still couldn't find it until The Last Jedi releases in my country.
I'm gonna
friggin
TEAR MYSELF IN HALF!!

It's my favorite Star Wars t-shirt though, I don't care I only have two, this one's my fave and I CAN'T FIND IT ANYWHERE IN MY HOUSE.

ONE THING I WILL REGRET IS
IF
I lose my Star Wars t-shirt
just like I did with the Tazmania t-shirt, that I lost ages ago.

How the heck could it just go like that?
I wore it and then laundry or whatever. Then I wore this Iron Man t-shirt days later.
The Iron Man one already came back then WHERE IS THE STAR WARS ONE??

UNACCEPTABLE
NO I WILL NOT LET THE SAME FATE HAPPEN TO YOU

BECAUSE IF I DO
I'M GONNA REGRET IT MY WHOLE LIFE
I'D STILL REMEMBER IT EVEN YEARS AFTER
Yeah I still feel bad whenever I think "oh damn I want that t-shirt back, the bright soft blue... Tazmania printed on it, spinning and sh*t."

My neck my back my anxiety attack
rises when I remember that back

Find it get it back oh that solid black covered in Star Wars logo rotated 90 degrees to the left, the subtle appearance of Darth Vader just right behind it.
Come back son.

-Kam is in agony

Bye friend

Hey

Sad day today...
My cat died.
The first cat that I love so much, I'm so attached to her.

She's the one that gave birth to one, then another four healthy kittens and one poor kitten.
I wrote the stories on my blog, go check them out.

I'm starting to be okay with the situation, because, there's nothing I can do.
It was too late when we found out, she was already dying... :(
Well, there are things that we can't change. We just have to move on.

I'm still sad, you know like, cry whenever I remember what she used to do, imagining her still around begging for attention. And now she's gone.
It's hard to let go, it wasn't such a long time, she's only almost 2 years old, but she had to go too soon...

I looked at her just hours before, she was so thin, so I decided to feed her first before the other cats.
Then just 2 hours before it happened I took a photo of the poor kitty... oh why did you have to go this soon?

Well, yeah... that's news. Now I have to take care of the other cats hoping I'll do everything right so at least they all can live longer than their mom.

-Kam is still sad

pain

ahhh so painful
what is?
everything.
how do i tell people? ah no they won't understand, they'll only make it worse.

why am i feeling like i'm alone? writing my thoughts, either on a note, or on a blog, to lift off some of the weight.
i just can't say anything to anyone about how i feel. honestly i think i'm about to explode if i keep going like this.

nobody understands.

i keep making myself busy, doing things i love or just simply helping out others, sometimes i do things just to escape all of this.
naaaah mate, nothing works it just keeps coming back. the thoughts and the words from them.

i can't end this. i have so much to live for, i mean out there, don't know what's out there and that's why.
i haven't explored. i haven't done much. i haven't done anything important. i haven't gone far into reaching my biggest dreams.

sometimes i think, ah just take me away.
but i can't go now.
heckin hecc.

what about you?

-Kam with all the pain

Mixed feelings

Haylo
???
Soz mates I don't know what happened but what's up?  Is it ze sky or ze ceiling? YOU DECIDE. *epic sfx*

First off, Marvel, give us Infinity War trailer, like, NOW. I'm being patient, there's still Thor: Ragnarok, and Black Panther. BUT THINK of the people who couldn't afford going to D23 Expo or SDCC, and those who are living too far away, for example, ME.
Think of the children.
LMAO. I mean honestly, I've only seen the leaked ones, that have kind of annoying screams from the audiences, that at the same time boosting my feels and excitement but pl0x I can't hear what they're saying. And that one that shows someone standing up in front of the camera. Uncool angles... etc.

Directory 128

Hello.
This is dumb.
Welcome to the second time I forgot about the birth of my blog. September 12.
Five days later here we are!
Also, 128th post, O bOI.

Happy 2 years anniversary, Kamfff's Blog of Weirdness.

We've all come a long way.
"Now, remind me not to forget that next year." Nope HAH NEVERMIND I forgot about it again this year ffs!! :DDD

Here is something to celebrate both, a blog directory of the last 128 posts, with overviews. This is gonna take a long time. But let's do it anyway! *I might not gonna do any formatting to the text because I'm running out of time. I have less than 2 hours.

dig up dinosaurs?

Hey peeeps I got something to tell!! :D
NEXT POST, will be my 128th post!! Insaaane! Finally getting to my favorite number beecaaause... that's my birthday so DUH oops..! 28
So IDK how to celebrate whatsoever, maaaybe I'll try doing somethings IDK man seriously just help me out will ya? Give me some ideas, comment down there help a buddy out!

Uhhh... maybe I should do like a tribute post eh like whatever you wanna call it, uumm maybe a highlight of all those other 127 posts are all about and, blog stats?? BRO IDK.
OHH I KNOW I SHOULD POST IT ON THE (uhh nevermind)!! So like, 128th post on (uh life)... uhhh.. finds a way?
Soz my movie reference, can't handle those sometimes.

So you two mmm, hm, dig up- dig up dinosaurs? (I can do a very good impression of this line btw) YOU HAVE TO GET USED TO DR MALCOLM

My Precious

Hey people, what's up?

I was just going through some useless (like me) websites and clicking the bored button.
You wanna know what I really want right now? I want a Xavier's School for Gifted Youngsters t-shirt/sweater. I want the sweater the most though, just that one.
Honestly being a part of X-Men would be great, living in the X Mansion and being taught by Professor X. BUT HEY THAT'S THE INTERNET FOR YOU AND ON THE INTERNET MEMES ARE KEENG They're fictional.
I'll just get the sweater pls thx, and meet James McAvoy. Pl0x.

d r e a m d a d d y

Henlo hooman, what is up?
ZE SKY

MWHAHAHHAHAHAHA eViL LauGH
I'm so random today.
So what is actually up? Like, in my life. Well, tbh, not so much. I'm currently revisiting (by that I mean listening) to songs I used to listen to back then. I guess saying "back then" doesn't really count since technically the songs aren't really old.
Maybe what I'm trying to say is.. I'm listening to songs that I used to listen to, so much, but not anymore. Doesn't matter if the song is old or not so old idfc.

But the point is, I'm listening to some music.
That's basically it.
Hey, it's almost September... ARE YOU EXCITED FOR NOVEMBER?!?!

More Google cars

Hey people! What's up?

I mean, HELLO INTERNET (WTF THIS IS DAN'S THING) and WELCOME TO BEHIND THE MEME, where we take a look at the meaning and the origin of your favorite memes and treeends..! jk lol this isn't BTM.

You won't believe this.
You know that I mentioned once (or maybe a couple more times, and some subtle hints) that I live in Indonesia, a beautiful country.
Recently it was Indonesia's independence day, WE'VE BEEN FREE FOR 72 YEARS! Wooh!
Also *cough* to people saying that I don't love my country for always using English language you can flip off mkay...
LOL I'm not that rude. Didn't mean to be that rude.
But seriously, speaking English does not make me any less of a proud Indonesian.
We're going to talk about attentions, AND Dan and Phil!

Pick up a bag and fill it with things

Can I just rant first? :')

For these two posts I did this month, they were a flop.
The formatting was a huge flop, if you're early you should know what happened.
Just out of my control every format changes, from normal sized texts to smaller, and etc.
I'm super tired okay? So, let's try doing this less Kam style writing and more, proper.
Listen I TRIED writing the things on wordpad first for the last post, and STILL those craps happened.
MY GOODNESS how am I going to make this stop once and for all? It wasn't this hard before?

I know this isn't gonna be fun, this wouldn't probably be a long post anyway.
I'll try going back to my usual out of everyone's mind writing style in the next one.
MAYBE.Let's do it, screw this. I'm gonna be upset I can't be "ME" THROUGH PC :(

"Pick up a bag and fill it with things."

What's that?
It's a quote, I said to myself.
But just that one sentence and it would blast my mind off.
It reminds me of my childhood.

Setting up a goal!

HEY PEOPLE! WHAT IS UP!?

TECHNICAL ISSUES AGAIN! Texts turned super smol HOLY CRAP!! :(
What is wrong with you?? is2g I'm so mad because of this, TWICE YOu let this happen whoever is in charge, FIX IT NOW!!

GUESS WHAT?
THIS YEAR, MIGHT BE THE FIRST EVER YEAR that I post EVERY SINGLE MONTH! *not counting how many I posted each month BUT AT LEAST THERE'S 1
IF, I could make it till the end of the year while I keep posting each month.
And, next year, maybe I can set up a goal where I would FULLY COMMIT and post properly, consistently, 5 for each month! Wouldn't that be great?!
Let's do this boiis

Today I took pictures of the kittens, one by one, and I'm finally getting to understand each of their fur patterns.
Oh, if you don't know, they've all opened their eyes, like a week ago since they are currently 3 weeks and 4 days old. They still have dark eyes though, I'm pretty sure the colors' are going to change, we all know that right?

TBH I don't really know what to talk about, but let's give this one a go so and come up with ideas along the way. (UHH NO I ACTUALLY came up with some pretty great things, so keep reading!)

main daddies

u r TEARING ME APART lisa

I swear the post formatting from the last post was f**ked up -_-
I GOTTA FIX IT
FFS I'M SO MAD I SWEAR I NEED TO REWRITE THIS OR SMTH
*I might delete it and republish the "main daddies" post after this
or just move it to this one
I had to copy that one to wordpad and copy it back and reformat everything WHY

Hey p e o p l e what is up

THAT'S SO CLICKBAIT THO
This is what I call, a quality title... *Kam does the hand smooching thing chefs like to do*

I forgot how many post I need for this month, wasn't it like, 5 or something? Just like usual? I mean, the usual, usual... The original.
What the hecc am I talking about

Y E S O N E O R I G I N A L C H I C K E N P L E A S E N O S P I C Y S P I C E

What happened to the text formatting it keeps giving me a space and it won't go back to normal size HALP

There you go, free from the heck.
Heckling heck. Ignore this pl0x.

R u reading this

Henlo creatures o sh waddup

I'm back to blogging on my phone for this one so i can't do the big text small text thing which is really fun but ya know this is on the mobile app i can't do that

And i can't insert a page break
Is that what you call it? I forgot. But at least you got the point right?

Currently listening to wild by troye sivan lolol hi troye are you reading this?
"YOU WISH!"

ye so
I'm still confused of how this blogging thing works when i do that in two devices cuz now it says that the back for some more dankness post is published on july tf you confuse daddy

I guess this one won't be long it's like an update but not really, it's 12 am right now currently, fun right...

I heard we can see gotg vol 2 on itunes on the 8th of august, weee hd boii. FUN FUN FUN FUN!! And THAT DOES MEAN we can see the gag reel/bloopers around the same time! And a bit of preview before! Maybe! Still fun though! :):)

Oh i saw this x-men sweater i want...
It's the xavier's school for gifted youngsters one and NO NEVERMIND I ACTUALLY NEED IT ASAP! Just wanna imagine myself as a mutant, awesome...

Anyway, that's probably it, sorry it's short but i've been posting quite a lot before so why don't you read those as well? It's worth it t r u s t m e
Glad you survived reading this post! Thank you for reading and trusting me as your #1 trusted news blogger (LMAO)

That was a joke if you can't tell
Alright my children, see you next time!

-Kam wants to imagine being a mutant

Hulk like fire

LMAO I'M LAUGHING SO HARD BOIIIIIS
LOOK AT THIS
  link here fam

It's a snip from a post long ago, and...
well...
can't you see?

I mean...
HAVE Y'ALL SEEN THAT?? UNDERSTAND THE REFERENCE??

The Infinity Marvel Talks

Yo fam what is up
Cringey? duh

So for the last 2 posts I gave y'all a smol amount of post preview on the home page, now let me just try giving you more, hopefully. I mean so far I don't really know what to talk about... lol soz.

Um so let's talk about Infinity War, because I'm so hyped up about it, I know I gotta be patient, it's coming next year and we still have 2 MCU movies to see before it, Thor: Ragnarok and Black Panther. But OHHH man I'm just to hyped up of the fact that I'm gonna be seeing EVERY MARVEL HEROES TO DATE SHOWING UP IN ONE MOVIE!!!!!!!!!!!! AT LEAST THAT'S WHAT THEY SAID!! (Wait does that mean.... hold on "every Marvel heroes, not MCU does that mean we're going to see some X-Men??? Maybe all of them??? WHAT?!?!?!?!) THREE CHRISES TWO TOMS TWO PETERS WHAT THE HECC ELSE DID I MISS???

So yeah, Hype.

Kittens

Hey people what the fk is up Kyle?!?!
no, what'd you say?? wtf dude?! step tf up KYLE!!

Oh yea, I haven't told you about this...

Yes fam, I'm SH00K.

COUGH

I have something to say.

I'm g

What rhymes with "say"? Exactly.

I Live Somewhere Else

WOW, a lot happened...

D23, SDCC.

LOOK AT ALL THOSE EXPOS AND CONS I ALWAYS MISSED CUZ I LIVE SOMEWHERE ELSE

Just, great.

The point of this post is:
I CAN'T WAIT FOR INFINITY WAR!!!
Honestly, did you see the part when Kevin Feige announced (some of) the casts on D23 expo panel???

BUT I PUBLISHED ON APRIL (s28t happens)

Umm.. for some reason this post shows that I posted it on June 21, what the hecc?

I kinda put that one on draft for a long time from the mobile app.
WELL YOU'RE FOOKIN STUPID YOU BLOGGER MOBILE APP ALRIGHT WHY WON'T YOU UPDATE AND DO THINGS YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE DOING AND LIKE P R O P E R L Y

And now I've only realized that I have 7 posts on March and 3 on April.
THE TWO ON MARCH WERE SUPPOSED TO BE POSTED ON APRIL OKAY?! Wasn't my fault ok I tried, those were on draft until I publish those on APRIL.
A P R I L

Well, s28t happens right.

henlo fellow creatures

It is I, Kam.

I would like to apologize for the lack of posting these two months.

Please forgive me.

I will make it up to all of you. This month (*cough* hopefully) I am planning to post 7 more times. And for next month, I will post 6 times.

*because I only posted once last month and I only have posted once this month, so that means I'm currently missing 8 for these two months. I'll do 7 this month, and 5+1 for next month.

I understand that it means I might focus on quantity rather than quality but FOR THE SAKE OF IT MAN! Uhh so yeah some of the posts might be kinda pointless to read, maybe you wouldn't be able to read it at all, or it's probably gonna take just 2 seconds to read. But hey, this is how I try to get back into the game alright? I'm never giving up this one unless I have no time or I forgot to do it.

COME ON THE FORCE IS STRONG WITH ME I CAN DO IT HECC YEA

I need to get that commitment back.

Back for some more dankness;)

SO
Ok that one last post was daaamn scary ok holy crap
Idk what to say but let's get over it and get back to more monthly dankness
Ayyyy lmao

See this is so weird yknow like one post i'm all wise and heartwarming and deep and on the other one i'm all like
Dankiest dank piece of crap kek with all the random slices of pure memes and incorrect language and words and letters and stuff heheh amirite

Ok honestly am i that weird
No but yeah I AM LOOOOOOL

Speaking of dank things you know how dank it is to have all sorts of global dank emotes ON YO DISCORD
i have discord heh yeea you think i ain't a cool dank gamer???

I have, well, i guess, a lot of emote servers.
The twitch community servers also counts lol. Sorry for being a nobody.
You know, just there for the global emotes.

Also, apologize for not posting much, let's say, once a month when i'm supposed to post 5.
Listen i gotta give myself a goal for each month or else it ain't gonna work cuz i'm a non commital person
Did i spell that right

Anyway
I think that's it suddenly everything hurts so i gotta go see ya
And thanks for reading

-Kam's a nobody :(

When I was a kid...

When I was a very young kid, my aunt bought me a doll, then I told my mom, "Mom, I don't want this, I don't like it."

When I was a bit older my dad wanted to buy me a skirt, I said, "No, I don't want it, I don't like it, even if you buy it for me, I won't wear it."

When I was an older kid, I see boys, they look great. I wanted to look like them. I want a short hair, I want boys' clothes, I want to be just like them.

When my parents went to a clothing store, they asked me which one I like. I chose one, the one I really want, the one for boys. Or at least that's what they think.

I keep asking for boys' clothes.
I keep asking to cut my hair short.
I keep asking for toy cars.
So they gave me those.

You know how I felt?
I felt amazing.

I look into the mirror.
I was happy of how I look like, I finally looked like them.
I was happy I had cool toys, the ones that I liked.

Then years later, puberty comes.
I felt gross. I didn't like how I looked like.
My chest started to be more like women's chest. My hips got wider.
I hated my body.
I didn't even wear bras for years because I didn't like it, it's for women.

I also don't like when they call me "a beautiful girl" or "a pretty girl" I just feel uncomfortable, okay? Why won't you stop?

And I still feel that way.

I love short hair. I love masculine clothes. I love looking like guys.
I still hate my body.
I want to get rid of those thingys on my chest. I want my hips to get smaller.
I don't want this body. I didn't ask for it.

Even though I might feel comfortable at times mostly because I didn't care about my body. I still get dysphoria quite a lot at different times.
Do I wanna be a girl? Not really. Do I wanna fully transition into a guy? I don't think so. Though it'll be great but I don't think I can handle the process.

I'll just get a binder and I think everything will be alright.

So, what am I? Why do I feel this way? I still feel different. And you know what, I also like girls as much as I like guys. I don't even understand myself.

And parents, hey, shouldn't you already know? No, it's not a phase.
Hah, what? Really? It has always been like this for years and you still want to call it a phase?? Come on.

Yeah I'm still in the closet. Still scared.
I don't know what to say.
I'll probably just let them figure things out by themselves. I mean I've lived with them for years, since birth, they took most of the hints I dropped. They should already have at least a clue, that I'm different.

Yeah, no, not a phase, mom and dad. Figure it out already.

For parents out there with queer kids. I just want to let you know.
When they come out, please understand that, they come out, to be open with you, to feel safe and comfortable around you.
It's telling a truth, not changing themselves, they've always been like that, trust me. They just want you to love them more, to understand them more.
Please be accepting, if you can't, work it out, don't ever abandon them, they need you, always need you.

Love them with all your hearts.

And that's all I want to say.
I guess there will be no proper way of saying "okay it's done now have a great day, I'll be right back with more posts."
I just want people to understand.
If you can't, then respect others.
See ya.

-Kam is queer, get over it.

Hit me up publicspace ;)

Hey people what's up!

I've been browsing e-shops a lot recently...
Aaand I want a lot of things but I'm broke af.
Honestly.

I saw some vaporwave aesthetic clothes from publicspace, I really want this one sweatshirt with microsoft design, it's pastel blue and I love it so much.
I also think it might be limited edition because they've teamed up with yoko honda which also sells amazing clothes. (Saw some on rageon)

Like... all these cool amazing geeky and aesthetic apparels online, and I can't buy any?? Heck
For some reasons
Talking bout rageon i just opened my shop it's at: kamf.rageon.com check it out! Buy my first design maybe idk
I didn't put that much effort but maybe in the future.

Oh i'm all about those aesthetics.
Hey publicspace, i might haven't got that much followers but i'm broke so hit me up ;)
Works like a charm
So uh yeah i want your amazing clothes maybe give me a discount if i buy some? Like the lost marble hoodie is FREAKIN GR8
Combine that with the jogger and i'm gonna look fresh af

Shopping online...
I bought a fidget spinner and a fidget cube and they just arrived. They were pretty cheap so that explains why they're in a bad quality.
I mean, i guess whatever that works right? They do but kinda bad.

The fidget spinner, i bought the glow in the dark one, $5. When it got here i checked it doesn't glow in the dark. (Scammed) crap! And it only spins for less than a minute no matter how hard i tried to spin it.
The fidget cube, i can totally tell it's fake because i saw a video explaining which is fake and which isn't.

It's white and pink (the hell, stereotyping?) Or kinda red idfk. I don't mind tho am i just too sensitive about equality and stuff lmao.
So the features, glide spin click and stuff... glide(joystick) doesn't glide well, doesn't spin well, concave thing isn't concave enough, the ball rolls but doesn't click. And finally the click ones, they all click loudly, it's supposed to be 3 loud clicks and 2 silent.

So basically, i've been fooled. Not i've been delayed. Well what can i do living in such place? Literally halfway around the globe from the center of everything, you know the US.
Back to the aesthetic stuffs, it's still basic here, you don't really see actual.. what yall call tumblr fashun. They're all like basic texts pretending to be aesthetic enuff. Unless you really want to dig deep into instagram or line you'll find independent stores that don't get enough recognition.

And for random crapstorm of all over print apparels like what you can find on rageon or soscribbly...
You gotta buy them there.
Understand what i mean? LIKE, WHERE TF CAN YOU FIND THOSE HERE? you'll find so many casuals, but no crazy printings, which is cool i believe. If you find just ONE of those here, means ur lucky af.

My world is so far away, what in the heck. I'm here along with the least population of the most random people. My fashun, my style, is hard to be found. I mean, i'm an internet kid. I GOTTA REPRESENT. I GOTTA BE MEME ENOUGH WHEN I'M GOING OUTSIDE! Our people don't get enough representation here, fellow memes and internet cult members. (Wtf?) what can i do??

I've spoken enough, as you heard. I gotta vanish to the internet world, now, my children. Pray for me.
Survive here, that's one thing you should remember. React to me. Comment on this and thou shall be remembered.
Thank you for guarding me, being here by my side. I will see you as soon as i get back from the internet world. #TeamInternet
Farewell, my children.

-Kam, an internet meme.

FACE REVEAL???

Hey people what's up?

Okay, so I'm going here to blog. I wanna talk about twitter...
It's been a couple of days now and twitter app still won't load ANY picture at all.
Like, bruh please get it together!! Why on earth would that happen?
I tried deleting app data and cache, reinstalling the app after i uninstalled it, and also restarting my phone NOTHING WORKS 1v1 me arse

I went to settings and nothing like 'show images' was there. I AM DESPURRATE meow
So i just went ballistic (what thef) spammed my secondary instagram acc
Y not
Call me kool kid bc i also have a secondary insta that is private so my parunts wont see whats insoide
STEALTH MODE MF

You wanna follow? Is it necessary for yall peeps to see my face? IS IT THE RIGHT TIME FOR FACE REVEAL??
We may never know.
Holda fam, maybe it is. You wanna see my face now? K what bout if i just put one selfie here?
No, i know. Just follow instagram.com/darthicle IT'S A PRIVATE ONE, but no worries i'll let you follow me if you have good intentions and urnotmyparrunds so just follow if u've been w me for a while now and want to see my face bc u curious
I'm open if u wanna be my friend as well just dm me and we can talk!
I'll probably put up the link on that one page with links in it so more people can see or wtv + probs my discord tag ;)

Ye i do have discord y i'm a gamer as well altho it's literally filled w cpps servers lmao choke me
Btw yall saw dnpgames my horse prince series? I saw em all and the story was like WHAT IN TARNATION
I played it before daniel and phil (lol) played it tho i was like "dnp should totally play this considering phil's scared of horses and this is totally weird but funny" AND THEY PLAYED IT I WAS TOTES FREAKING OUT my dream came true omf

I gotta admit i was only playing like 2 seasons or wtv cuz i was trying out new games n to see if i could use lucky patcher on it to speed up the story and gameplay muahahahaha i know i'm a cheeky one ;) forgive me pls
But then dan and phil PHINISHED the story for all of us amirite lmao excuse my pun i am so punny heheh
Thank god they exist such beautiful people i love them sm *heart emoji*

So i think that's all for this post
Survived? Cool. Great. Awesome!
Enjoyed it? THANK YOU, YOU AMAZING PERSON! Ily
I'll see you next time then! Don't forget to check back for one more post this month!
Bye!

-Kam is a noob haxor??? What

REBRANDING???

Hey people! What's up????

I'm finally back with my PC, I mean back with the blogging.
SMH hahah I've been using my laptop PC this whole time playing all sorts of CPPSes and browsing and all that and I didn't blog on it single bit.
Now I'm back!

I don't miss doing this on browser lol.
Nah don't take what I just said seriously, it's good to be back here.

I'm sorry

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Happy Revenge of the Fifth btw

I'm so dark inside lol

I LET FEAR CONSUME ME MYEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAA

Sorry bye
-Kameo actor

May the fourth!!

Eyo what's up children

Umm hahah sorry

So dan is rebranding. DANIEL HOWELL. Is no longer on fire i mean nvm.

Makes me think actually
YouTube, i'm still with sodacannot. Idk. I came up with it years ago. And i thought ey cool.

Well it's a username i use on some sites. Now i'm thinking, i can't stuck with this? I'm thinking maybe i'll rebrand once i got some spotlight, to kamicle or smth.

Something with my name on it so yknow
I mean danisnotonfire is a cool one it even has dan's name on it
Sodacannot doesn't have kam or anything on it just kinda like soda can not

Dan Is Not On Fire
Yeah i know it looks stupid that way
But dani snot on fire is fire though lool

Ah well i'll rebrand next time
When i upload some videos with my actual face on it rn i don't have the courage to
Yeah i mean if my face is there then it's reasonable to have my name at least on my username

There's been quite a lot of cpps pop out of nowhere to existence. Since cp is closed now they've taken the spotlight.
I tried pretty much all of them.
Some, didn't make it and decided to close down while nobody notices.

I've been thinking about my life, a lot, as well.
Something i do every day apparently.
I'm like uuugh my life is crap
Honestly i'm such a mess whenever i see something like some people having fun and stuff
NO WAIT NOT THAT
If i see a situation i should've been on but i'm not I Freak The Heck Out

You understand what i mean?
Guess i shoulda explain everything
Um just see that one page about my story or smth. My life story.
Up there somewhere go read it and u will understand the things i'm saying

I'm just thinking no i don't want to speak of too much depression. I just wanna leave that in another page.
I wanna keep my blog posts in a happy state
Wth lol
Just spread happiness ya kno

ALSO
EYYYY
GUESS WHAT DAY IT IS
HAPPY STAR WARS DAY!
MAY THE FOURTH BE WITH YOU ALL
NOW THAT is happiness
The last jedi, is later this year. Woo! So excited!!!

If you ask me what's my fave star wars movie it'll be rogue one
BC REALLY IT WAS JUST AMAZING I WAS BLOWN AWAY BY HOW MUCH it's just done right. It was a masterpiece. Think of a movie that fits right in a franchise. Rogue one.

There you have my answer.
I saw this new star wars force for change vid on yt
You know prank stuff with mark hamill
This one woman was asked what her fave star wars movie is and she was like ROGUE ONE simply the best
I was like I KNOW OMG IT IS THE BEST
and mark hamill was like "well i won't be needed here"

Lol
But true tho rogue one was simply the best. I don't really know how to explain why but damn.

Right so i think that's it for this post
Y'all enjoyed this one? Go read some more. Also check out sodacannot on youtube. Watch some videos.
Let's be friends? I guess if you want to. Maybe we have things in common.
So wow you survived the heck outta this one, happy for you!
I'll see ya next time alright? Byee!

-Kam soda cannot do this anymore

Losing control

Wait who's getting married in May?

Hey people what's up?
It's ya friendly friend Kam.
frIENDLY FRIEND. AYE.

UM RANDOMNESS
Ye
Anyway, are dan and phil really moving?
Y'all why you doin this to me
Ahem i don't think so buy yeah they are
Brb imma kms

Ma bbys
I saw this recent cuddleswithphan video and aah i am shook
Then i searched for some phan proofsTM
CUZ y not

I've been delayed
Phannies put ur hands up!!11!1!
WHAT IF
WHAT IF
WHAT IF
WHAT IF WE RUN AWAY
imeanlol nvm why am i singing youth
I've been crafting my whole life like i made a river

Yall got them soft and neat pheels
Right
Can't wait for may
What in preparation

Aah i am shook

SORRY I JUST DON'T KNOW HOW TO CONTROL MYSELF RN BUT I BLOG
I BLOG
I B L O G
shoot m8
IT'S MIDNIGHT I AM NOT ASLEEP WHAT THE HELL DO I EVEN HAVE A LIFE
BUT I BLOG
EHEHEHEHEH
CRAP

But i blog
Dayum bro yes i do

Wait holdup
I can see how i'm trying too much
*insert a crying emoji here*
I'm sorry get me more views
Btw do yall wanna see a face reveal video
Ye imma put my face on there
Don't even worry

Oh right i got a new headset
Yknow headphone with microphone
Prepare for some gaming goodness

Phan is real

Sorry my mouth ran away i got it back
It's (not) under control
Tell me when to stop, friends.

IsTHIS TOO MUCH

I'm losing my crap
Someone pls find it for me
I'm just a kid
Y u not nice 2 me
I need a scottish fold
I fookin need it

Uh

UH
Ye mf
SORRY LOL OMG WHAT HAPPENED TO THIS POST
pretend like this is a very long butt apologize for being such a butt

I'm

Okay i gotta stop now fr this is getting out of hand i suggest someone lend me a hand to wipe away this mess while i'm trying to control myself to behave nicely in front of my blog readers hm do i even have any COMMENT DOWN BELOW there's like this box or smth that u can totes use to interact with me hopefully i won't be socially awkward lol i'm such a stupid little crap with messy life

"Everything is shattering and it's my mistake."
Ty troye sivan mellet u r my inspiration i relate so much ily
I GOT A GAMING HEADSET TO RECORD GAMEPLAY VIDEOS GUESS WHAT IT'S
BLUE
*screams in romanian but with an australian accent*
I'm so emo
Blue like blue cuz this is a blue neighbourhood
Had to insert a U there i was tryna be aussie af
Kinda british cuz i watch dnp lol yep i'm going now pls forgive me

Ahh anyway what a great day
But it's midnight
Lmao clever amirite my iq is like 5'2"
;););):):)
How can yall ever forgive me
We're so tired of this person someBODY ONCE TOLD ME THE WORLD IS GONNA ROLL ME

I try too hard to be a meme
I identify as a meme ever since i was a kid-
nO NO NO NO I'M STOPPING RIGHT THERE

Okay that was a long one
What was?
Can't wait till may
Gotg2 and

Update eyyyyy I watched guardians of the galaxy vol 2
IT WAS A BLAST
It's awesome
CHRIS PRATT IS SPACE DAD wanna argue? Lol
BUT CHRIS EVANS AND JAMES MCAVOY ARE STILL MAIN DADDIES bye
Sad I missed two bonus scenes, THERE'S FIVE?? I saw three tho but like??? I missed two marvel help me the f out bro I CAN'T!
Now what do i do? Go watch it again?
Heeelp meee

And yes dan and phil are moving, they confirmed it. I really hope they'll enjoy their new home, feel a lot better in it bc we all feel and we love to feeel

Ahem so
whooooaaa who th is actually getting married? Louise, pj, care to give us explanation cuz we're getting overly excited that we feel things?
Hope you survived that one, quite a dangerous post wasn't it? Yeea it's a tough one. did you feel?
I feel
Also enjoy things alright don't be such a dan and nick
Take care
See you in the next post
Jk i can't actually see you but lol goodbye

-Kam is getting out of control

Happiness?

Do you ever stop doing something and suddenly rethink your past decisions?
Question everything in your life?

Uugh anyway... let's talk.

What's up?

I've been unhappy. And i've been wondering...
"When can i be happy?"
It's a question that's hard to answer. I literally don't know.

I've seen this one fan video of dan showing how much happier he is. Makes me happy, of course. But, i wanna feel that way, just like him.
I wanna feel happier.

I'm hoping one day, i could go and tell people how happy i am maybe because of them, or because of my hardwork.
Also share happiness. That's a good thing to do.

Have you ever felt that way?

I know right now, i'm still in that position. And, it's hard to get out of. I'm still trying, still figuring out the best time to crawl out and find better place.

I have goals. I have dreams. And every day i imagine myself completing my goals, reaching my dreams. Imagine them the best way possible. Imagine that i am happy.

To be honest, right now i want some internet friends, that i could talk to? Share experiences with, and all that stuff. I've got some but i haven't really got the chance to talk deeper. Like, have a deep convo with one of them.

Would you be my friend?
I mean idk what's happening, i haven't checked comments in a while. Although i'm pretty sure there are no comments.
Oh fgs really peeps?

Well, we're all facing some problems.
We all want to be happy.
I'm sure we'll find happiness someday.
I'm sure we'll reach our dreams.
Just don't ever give up on them.
Promise me, okay?
We can get through this together.

I know things can get hard.
I know bad things can happen.
But no matter what happens.
Keep holding on.
You can do it.
You deserve happiness.

Sure, i think a lot at night, just thinking of everything. Life. Life is hard.
But, don't give up, right? Yes.
So, i guess that's all.
Enjoy life, good things ahead, i promise.
Enjoy this blog as well. Wink ;)
I'm happy you're here.
See you soon.

-Kam is looking for happiness

Such a meme

Heeyyooo peeps whaddup

Sorry

How's life? Enjoying things so far?
Me? Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah
Idk

Do you play cpi? I do, well not so often anymore cuz i haven't updated the game to the latest version bc i think i'm just gonna wait till it gets better

Duh
I just don't like how i can't do anything fun and like
I gotta be naked all the time bruh they didn't let non members wear clothes??

Ppl have been getting so savage about this (is this the correct way to say it idk)
But it's like
Ahem
A tweet from club penguin
"Look at these penguin cupcakes you can make them too! Try it at home!.."
Random tweeter
"Do you need membership to make those?"
Damn it. XD

Yea they're actually quite funny lol
Cmon disney.. we want free things pls?

Also dnp was in singapore
They met fishes and water creatures
I'm like so jelly if i lived there and if i were lucky i might meet them
GET IT HAHAHAH JELLY LIKE JELLYFISH AND STUFF YA KNOW WATER CREATURES HAHAHAH I'M SO FUNNY IDEK BYE
But like freaking go south and give me a hug
Lol but wtv they already went to australia
Then go north to me
Protip: Don't cry, craft. Craft some soft and neat things.

Ah well i guess i can still live just okay without meeting them i mean
Cri
I mean yeah it's totally ok
Kinda feel like, yknow they're just humans like us, they have a life, we should have one as well so don't spend your whole life just for them
But we're fangirls and fanboys
Um let it go?
No. No frozen references pls. Cp sucked bc of that.
Ok forgive me

Kinda wanna talk about my gaming life
I've been playing all kinds of cpps also habbo and like a bunch others i think
Then now i'm thinking
I did want to have a ps vita, but i spent some money for other craps do i still want it or what is going on and how tf am i supposed to buy one?
Questions in my head
Yea i kinda still want one even though i don't have enough money for it.

I'm also thinking about making skits for my youtube channel
Yeah i really meant what i said
I want to pursue acting
So like really start it off by making skits maybe
Surely it's gonna be hard cuz i gotta do everything myself
Actor: me director: me
Cameraman, writer, the other character's actor, stage crew, editor, producer: freakin me
Just me
No wut do u think i have friends to do this with?
M8 i'm still stuck in here i can't have someone to help me like this aight

Ugh everything's confusing
Plus, how am i supposes to edit videos when my laptop can barely even launch the video editing program.
I can only use it for like 2 mins and then it crashes.
????? How in camera rotation am i supposed to do things
Meme
I'm such a meme
Lol
But i'm still being serious it's hard and it's gonna take time, a HUGE amount of time.

I probably need a new laptop but fgs i can't give up this 6 year old laptop i've always been using
For the software it's an open source software, free obvsly i can't afford adobe premiere lmao

So yeah, i'm pretty desperate
Oh man
It's alright tho i think
I'm just a human, i gotta keep going with my life no matter what
And i do believe there will be good things for me
Waiting to be discovered

I can't give up on my dreams.
I can't give up life.
We all deserve to live.
And there's so much to live for.
We're all just a tiny particle in this world, imagine everything we can do, and everything we yet to discover.
Go out there and do it.
Reach your dreams. Try out new things. Explore.

Well now, i'm off to do more things.
So hopefully you survived this wreck haha :)
Thanks for being here
See ya!

-Kam wants to explore the world

The attempt to get back my old self mobile version

EEEEEEEY PEEPS WASSSUUUUP

IT'S A ME KAM
CAN'T BELIEVE I'M DOING THIS BUT HONESTLY WE NEED SOME WEIRD CRAP RIGHT NOW

IT IS GONNA BE AMAZING

HOWSYALLDOIN

LOL

Whoa wait hold on
This honestly looks so unreal like

Anyway
Back to sad stuff i mean lol not really but HAVE YALL HEARD OF HARRY STYLES' NEW SINGLE???
we're not gonna talk about the whole stop your crying or we gotta get away from here stuff
BUT DAMN HARRY
SIGN OF THE TIMES IS PURE GOLD so damn good!! You HAVE TO agree with me cmon

I'm lovin it so much and yeah i've heard of what he's heard of
Don't ask let's not talk about it
Have some fun forget all the bad things around you
You deserve everything, you are worth everything, you are valid.

So talkin bout something else before i've heard harry's single...
Each and every one of yall who are in the phandom raise yo damn hands
We've all seen their craft videos right
Hahha it gets crazier each year danyul filip what the actual heck

Like how are they gonna top that next year
What is going to happen next year do we even need a crazier thing
Blame phil? Not sure about that
LMAO WHATEVS LET OUR SONS DO THEIR OWN THIGS.

Also talking about the first of april i was one of millions of joes sugg on twitter all of the freakin sudden every sugglet just turned into joe for the day and that included me
It was hilarious lmao even tom syndicate was also doing it. He went all out. And he liked my tweets.

What in
EVERYTHING JUST TURNED BOLD WTF
Ugh i have to work things out
Finally ok never let the bold font rule the world i mean never multitask to another app while using bold fonts.
Thar u go

Wut
Hahahahah forget it don't bother ma weirdness
What else?
Ooh yeah there's been a lot of cpps comin up since the closure of classic cp, i tried most of them.
Also i have my own cpps called Penguin Reborn that is made on cppscreator. I'm not giving you the link cause the server is off also there's an actual cpps called Club Penguin Reborn so idk which one is og lol. Forget mine let's move on.

I TRIED CPI
How is it kam?
Well idk it's for members only and if u want to know how i feel bout it and my whole review u better be a member of cpi lmao savage
but that's true tho everything's basically for members and it's kinda almost impossible for non members to have fun we don't rly have much choice

I can't even claim my free 7 days membership trial i'm like dahel yo
Rip cpi u will be remembered as a meme
hahahahhAHAHAHHAHAHHHahhah
No but i still have hope, pray for cpi so it'll get better and non member friendly more fun and free things and craps ok noice

Alrighty mateys that is it
Hope yall enjoyed reading this piece of crap glad u survived a whole mess
What's ur method? Lol i'm totes back
So yh seee yaaaa laaaater! Have a freakinnice day byeeee

-Kam is back? Maybe.

I've changed

do you realize that?

back in the day
when i was all weird and stuff
i was honestly completely weird but amazing

now?
look at me, knowing no capital letter, no jokes, no weird crap
depressed

what happened to me?
where's the self i used to be?
that one happy but slightly hiding sadness Kam that was 100% weird kind of amazing

now i'm all sad, where's my happiness?
where did it go?
look at this post i'm writing
where's the happiness, weirdness, all the jokes?

i used to see sadness as a temporary thing
and now,
is it true that happiness is the one that's temporary, and not sadness?

when am i gonna get my old self back?
the world may never know the answer of any of these questions.

-Kam in the darkness

Kamicle

hey people what's up

Kam is back here

those who tried CPI, how is it?
i preregistered on the play store app and two days ago i registered on the site.

definitely gonna try it out when it launches.
this march, but they didn't really tell us when, it's probably tomorrow, 29th of march

like holy broccoli cp closes tomorrow?
my, how time went so fast.
i'm gonna do a one last play video on cp and hopefully upload it tomorrow so yeah we'll see

it hurts to see it go you know

did you get to attend CPReunion? i didn't get to, i was asleep maybe, don't know what i was doing
but i def missed it
well it's fair i've been using CuP for the last times i play cp and duh, i don't wanna get caught? staffs are there, even though it LITERALLY DOESN'T MATTER ANYMORE

sorry for them caps
oh btw my username on CPI will be Kamicle hopefully so for y'all who wants to befriend me i'll see ya there

dunno what to say about cpi tho i mean surely it looks great but nothing can change cp, it's gold, it's a memory, it has a special place in our hearts.
would it get better than cp? how should i say this, uhh, nope, cp will always be the best.

also heard rocketsnail's up for a new mmo, they're workin on it?
something about snail tank or maybe something else cuz i checked the site and there's literally 4 games they're working on damn
one called unnamed snail tank, another is unnamed mmo or something

lookin forward to those
i mean, anything that the makers of cp is gonna make i'll be there to play them.

also i saw that justice league trailer on twitter, and as a more of a marvel fan i gotta say, ay that's pretty cool.
yeah, a cool trailer.
we can have that and we'll see infinity war next year ooooh yeeeaaahh

i'm writing this between 26-28 march and i gotta say making sense of everything, making this looks like it was only written on the 28th is hard.
*imma just pretend i won't forget to post this on the 28th*

nah i didn't forget
anyway, what to look forward this year?
ummm... it's hard obvs i don't really know
2K17's D28? well i mean sure it's gonna be great but what if
no cake like frickin last year
i did get cake tho but it was too late

ungrateful lool
let's hope it's gonna be great
i'm looking forward to..........
oh gosh i don't know honestly
i feel empty what in the world is going on with me everything suddenly changed
like nothing matters anymore
i've lost hope

holy crap that went crazy just in a snap
i mean if we were talking about next year i'm really looking forward to see infinity war like genuinely
but this year? uuhh idk it's already a flop so i'm like giving up everything. i'm not excited for a certain thing

i honestly feel empty as heck
i don't know what to feel anymore
is there really nothing exciting for me this year? did i forget something?
am i just totally covered up by bad thoughts and depression?

wait is this because of cp shutting down
no
and now i'm thinking how much this year has put me in misery
everything is just horrible

remember 2016 when i was all excited for civil war
next year we have infinity war
this year? surely we have gotg vol 2, new spidey, thor 3, they're gonna be a huge blast but something seems to be telling me to look away
it's like there's something else bigger to worry about and now i'm worrying everything so i can't see the fun part of this year

crap let's end this immediately, imma just jump on my laptop go play some cpps, and do cp one last play
and uh probs just forget everything let's not talk about anything i'm gonna leave

yeah sorry about that part i went into a bit of existential crisis i was just going in deeper into thinking and questioning more
glad i managed to stop

sooo yeah hope you survived (been a long time since i last said that)
what's your method of surviving?
thanks for reading glad we're all fine now
imma see you next month
goodbye

-Kam made this post horribly wrong

NOOT NOOT

hey ppl what's up

are you having a great day?
i hope you are.

do you know how cute kittens are?
i have a kitten and a momcat.
the kitten is about 1 and a half month old and it's super cute.

learned how to run and climb, wow it's growing so fast.
this one is quite energetic, believe me.
likes to sort of wrestle with the momcat for some freaking reason.

it has sharp claws though, but still harmless cuz it's just a kitten.
the name's Oreo, although we like to call it Leo sometimes.

why Oreo? the color of its fur, black and a bit white.
definitely not a food
or anything to eat
you can't eat my kitten

NOOT NOOT

sorry
this is what happens when you're in CP Rewritten community.
awesome welcoming, sort of wild community, love the peeps.

so soft, the kitten is.
*yoda
anyway, being really impatient waiting for the last jedi? me too.
i mean, who isn't hyped hearing about the new star wars film?
unless for non-fans (what is wrong with them?)

watched logan yet?
i haven't. don't spoil me.
i just think i can't really go anywhere as much as i could right now.
i think i'll just wait for the dvd/blu-ray release.

but i know it's gonna be amazing.
and sad.
it's the last time we'll ever see hugh jackman as logan/wolverine.
but he'll always be our wolverine.

anything else i'm hyped for?
yeah definitely, infinity war.
next year isn't it?
wow suddenly it's so close. can't wait.
the avengers and guardians of the galaxy, together.

i mean i freaked out seeing the day onee behind the scene of it, rdj, tom holland, chris pratt in one screen.
AAAAAAAHH
what's gonna happen when it's the whole avengers and gotg in one BIG screen

i'm gonna explode in happiness
who wouldn't tbh

phil trash number one

sorry
my phandom self just came outta nowhere

you know what i like to say for no reason?
"michael fassbender"
i might love james mcavoy more than michael fassbender
but for some reason, his name, is soo damn satisfying to say.
like wow what a good name

not as good as benedict cumberbatch's name
but michael fassbender is the one easier to pronounce for me

why am i talking about actors' names now? so weird.
i am weird ok get over it people

you guys see that one tweet i did?
with some marvel seasoning.
it's a screenshot of behind the scene of shooting that doctor strange post credits scene

DocThor
haha get it
doctor strange and thor facing each other
lol

ah okay you're probably not laughing right now but thanks for being here!
yeah i guess that's it for this one
i hope you enjoyed reading
see you next time! :)

-Kam