Losing control

Wait who's getting married in May?

Hey people what's up?
It's ya friendly friend Kam.
frIENDLY FRIEND. AYE.

UM RANDOMNESS
Ye
Anyway, are dan and phil really moving?
Y'all why you doin this to me
Ahem i don't think so buy yeah they are
Brb imma kms

Ma bbys
I saw this recent cuddleswithphan video and aah i am shook
Then i searched for some phan proofsTM
CUZ y not

I've been delayed
Phannies put ur hands up!!11!1!
WHAT IF
WHAT IF
WHAT IF
WHAT IF WE RUN AWAY
imeanlol nvm why am i singing youth
I've been crafting my whole life like i made a river

Yall got them soft and neat pheels
Right
Can't wait for may
What in preparation

Aah i am shook

SORRY I JUST DON'T KNOW HOW TO CONTROL MYSELF RN BUT I BLOG
I BLOG
I B L O G
shoot m8
IT'S MIDNIGHT I AM NOT ASLEEP WHAT THE HELL DO I EVEN HAVE A LIFE
BUT I BLOG
EHEHEHEHEH
CRAP

But i blog
Dayum bro yes i do

Wait holdup
I can see how i'm trying too much
*insert a crying emoji here*
I'm sorry get me more views
Btw do yall wanna see a face reveal video
Ye imma put my face on there
Don't even worry

Oh right i got a new headset
Yknow headphone with microphone
Prepare for some gaming goodness

Phan is real

Sorry my mouth ran away i got it back
It's (not) under control
Tell me when to stop, friends.

IsTHIS TOO MUCH

I'm losing my crap
Someone pls find it for me
I'm just a kid
Y u not nice 2 me
I need a scottish fold
I fookin need it

Uh

UH
Ye mf
SORRY LOL OMG WHAT HAPPENED TO THIS POST
pretend like this is a very long butt apologize for being such a butt

I'm

Okay i gotta stop now fr this is getting out of hand i suggest someone lend me a hand to wipe away this mess while i'm trying to control myself to behave nicely in front of my blog readers hm do i even have any COMMENT DOWN BELOW there's like this box or smth that u can totes use to interact with me hopefully i won't be socially awkward lol i'm such a stupid little crap with messy life

"Everything is shattering and it's my mistake."
Ty troye sivan mellet u r my inspiration i relate so much ily
I GOT A GAMING HEADSET TO RECORD GAMEPLAY VIDEOS GUESS WHAT IT'S
BLUE
*screams in romanian but with an australian accent*
I'm so emo
Blue like blue cuz this is a blue neighbourhood
Had to insert a U there i was tryna be aussie af
Kinda british cuz i watch dnp lol yep i'm going now pls forgive me

Ahh anyway what a great day
But it's midnight
Lmao clever amirite my iq is like 5'2"
;););):):)
How can yall ever forgive me
We're so tired of this person someBODY ONCE TOLD ME THE WORLD IS GONNA ROLL ME

I try too hard to be a meme
I identify as a meme ever since i was a kid-
nO NO NO NO I'M STOPPING RIGHT THERE

Okay that was a long one
What was?
Can't wait till may
Gotg2 and

Update eyyyyy I watched guardians of the galaxy vol 2
IT WAS A BLAST
It's awesome
CHRIS PRATT IS SPACE DAD wanna argue? Lol
BUT CHRIS EVANS AND JAMES MCAVOY ARE STILL MAIN DADDIES bye
Sad I missed two bonus scenes, THERE'S FIVE?? I saw three tho but like??? I missed two marvel help me the f out bro I CAN'T!
Now what do i do? Go watch it again?
Heeelp meee

And yes dan and phil are moving, they confirmed it. I really hope they'll enjoy their new home, feel a lot better in it bc we all feel and we love to feeel

Ahem so
whooooaaa who th is actually getting married? Louise, pj, care to give us explanation cuz we're getting overly excited that we feel things?
Hope you survived that one, quite a dangerous post wasn't it? Yeea it's a tough one. did you feel?
I feel
Also enjoy things alright don't be such a dan and nick
Take care
See you in the next post
Jk i can't actually see you but lol goodbye

-Kam is getting out of control

Happiness?

Do you ever stop doing something and suddenly rethink your past decisions?
Question everything in your life?

Uugh anyway... let's talk.

What's up?

I've been unhappy. And i've been wondering...
"When can i be happy?"
It's a question that's hard to answer. I literally don't know.

I've seen this one fan video of dan showing how much happier he is. Makes me happy, of course. But, i wanna feel that way, just like him.
I wanna feel happier.

I'm hoping one day, i could go and tell people how happy i am maybe because of them, or because of my hardwork.
Also share happiness. That's a good thing to do.

Have you ever felt that way?

I know right now, i'm still in that position. And, it's hard to get out of. I'm still trying, still figuring out the best time to crawl out and find better place.

I have goals. I have dreams. And every day i imagine myself completing my goals, reaching my dreams. Imagine them the best way possible. Imagine that i am happy.

To be honest, right now i want some internet friends, that i could talk to? Share experiences with, and all that stuff. I've got some but i haven't really got the chance to talk deeper. Like, have a deep convo with one of them.

Would you be my friend?
I mean idk what's happening, i haven't checked comments in a while. Although i'm pretty sure there are no comments.
Oh fgs really peeps?

Well, we're all facing some problems.
We all want to be happy.
I'm sure we'll find happiness someday.
I'm sure we'll reach our dreams.
Just don't ever give up on them.
Promise me, okay?
We can get through this together.

I know things can get hard.
I know bad things can happen.
But no matter what happens.
Keep holding on.
You can do it.
You deserve happiness.

Sure, i think a lot at night, just thinking of everything. Life. Life is hard.
But, don't give up, right? Yes.
So, i guess that's all.
Enjoy life, good things ahead, i promise.
Enjoy this blog as well. Wink ;)
I'm happy you're here.
See you soon.

-Kam is looking for happiness

Such a meme

Heeyyooo peeps whaddup

Sorry

How's life? Enjoying things so far?
Me? Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah
Idk

Do you play cpi? I do, well not so often anymore cuz i haven't updated the game to the latest version bc i think i'm just gonna wait till it gets better

Duh
I just don't like how i can't do anything fun and like
I gotta be naked all the time bruh they didn't let non members wear clothes??

Ppl have been getting so savage about this (is this the correct way to say it idk)
But it's like
Ahem
A tweet from club penguin
"Look at these penguin cupcakes you can make them too! Try it at home!.."
Random tweeter
"Do you need membership to make those?"
Damn it. XD

Yea they're actually quite funny lol
Cmon disney.. we want free things pls?

Also dnp was in singapore
They met fishes and water creatures
I'm like so jelly if i lived there and if i were lucky i might meet them
GET IT HAHAHAH JELLY LIKE JELLYFISH AND STUFF YA KNOW WATER CREATURES HAHAHAH I'M SO FUNNY IDEK BYE
But like freaking go south and give me a hug
Lol but wtv they already went to australia
Then go north to me
Protip: Don't cry, craft. Craft some soft and neat things.

Ah well i guess i can still live just okay without meeting them i mean
Cri
I mean yeah it's totally ok
Kinda feel like, yknow they're just humans like us, they have a life, we should have one as well so don't spend your whole life just for them
But we're fangirls and fanboys
Um let it go?
No. No frozen references pls. Cp sucked bc of that.
Ok forgive me

Kinda wanna talk about my gaming life
I've been playing all kinds of cpps also habbo and like a bunch others i think
Then now i'm thinking
I did want to have a ps vita, but i spent some money for other craps do i still want it or what is going on and how tf am i supposed to buy one?
Questions in my head
Yea i kinda still want one even though i don't have enough money for it.

I'm also thinking about making skits for my youtube channel
Yeah i really meant what i said
I want to pursue acting
So like really start it off by making skits maybe
Surely it's gonna be hard cuz i gotta do everything myself
Actor: me director: me
Cameraman, writer, the other character's actor, stage crew, editor, producer: freakin me
Just me
No wut do u think i have friends to do this with?
M8 i'm still stuck in here i can't have someone to help me like this aight

Ugh everything's confusing
Plus, how am i supposes to edit videos when my laptop can barely even launch the video editing program.
I can only use it for like 2 mins and then it crashes.
????? How in camera rotation am i supposed to do things
Meme
I'm such a meme
Lol
But i'm still being serious it's hard and it's gonna take time, a HUGE amount of time.

I probably need a new laptop but fgs i can't give up this 6 year old laptop i've always been using
For the software it's an open source software, free obvsly i can't afford adobe premiere lmao

So yeah, i'm pretty desperate
Oh man
It's alright tho i think
I'm just a human, i gotta keep going with my life no matter what
And i do believe there will be good things for me
Waiting to be discovered

I can't give up on my dreams.
I can't give up life.
We all deserve to live.
And there's so much to live for.
We're all just a tiny particle in this world, imagine everything we can do, and everything we yet to discover.
Go out there and do it.
Reach your dreams. Try out new things. Explore.

Well now, i'm off to do more things.
So hopefully you survived this wreck haha :)
Thanks for being here
See ya!

-Kam wants to explore the world