pain

ahhh so painful
what is?
everything.
how do i tell people? ah no they won't understand, they'll only make it worse.

why am i feeling like i'm alone? writing my thoughts, either on a note, or on a blog, to lift off some of the weight.
i just can't say anything to anyone about how i feel. honestly i think i'm about to explode if i keep going like this.

nobody understands.

i keep making myself busy, doing things i love or just simply helping out others, sometimes i do things just to escape all of this.
naaaah mate, nothing works it just keeps coming back. the thoughts and the words from them.

i can't end this. i have so much to live for, i mean out there, don't know what's out there and that's why.
i haven't explored. i haven't done much. i haven't done anything important. i haven't gone far into reaching my biggest dreams.

sometimes i think, ah just take me away.
but i can't go now.
heckin hecc.

what about you?

-Kam with all the pain