pain

ahhh so painful
what is?
everything.
how do i tell people? ah no they won't understand, they'll only make it worse.

why am i feeling like i'm alone? writing my thoughts, either on a note, or on a blog, to lift off some of the weight.
i just can't say anything to anyone about how i feel. honestly i think i'm about to explode if i keep going like this.

nobody understands.

i keep making myself busy, doing things i love or just simply helping out others, sometimes i do things just to escape all of this.
naaaah mate, nothing works it just keeps coming back. the thoughts and the words from them.

i can't end this. i have so much to live for, i mean out there, don't know what's out there and that's why.
i haven't explored. i haven't done much. i haven't done anything important. i haven't gone far into reaching my biggest dreams.

sometimes i think, ah just take me away.
but i can't go now.
heckin hecc.

what about you?

-Kam with all the pain

Mixed feelings

Haylo
???
Soz mates I don't know what happened but what's up?  Is it ze sky or ze ceiling? YOU DECIDE. *epic sfx*

First off, Marvel, give us Infinity War trailer, like, NOW. I'm being patient, there's still Thor: Ragnarok, and Black Panther. BUT THINK of the people who couldn't afford going to D23 Expo or SDCC, and those who are living too far away, for example, ME.
Think of the children.
LMAO. I mean honestly, I've only seen the leaked ones, that have kind of annoying screams from the audiences, that at the same time boosting my feels and excitement but pl0x I can't hear what they're saying. And that one that shows someone standing up in front of the camera. Uncool angles... etc.

Directory 128

Hello.
This is dumb.
Welcome to the second time I forgot about the birth of my blog. September 12.
Five days later here we are!
Also, 128th post, O bOI.

Happy 2 years anniversary, Kamfff's Blog of Weirdness.

We've all come a long way.
"Now, remind me not to forget that next year." Nope HAH NEVERMIND I forgot about it again this year ffs!! :DDD

Here is something to celebrate both, a blog directory of the last 128 posts, with overviews. This is gonna take a long time. But let's do it anyway! *I might not gonna do any formatting to the text because I'm running out of time. I have less than 2 hours.

dig up dinosaurs?

Hey peeeps I got something to tell!! :D
NEXT POST, will be my 128th post!! Insaaane! Finally getting to my favorite number beecaaause... that's my birthday so DUH oops..! 28
So IDK how to celebrate whatsoever, maaaybe I'll try doing somethings IDK man seriously just help me out will ya? Give me some ideas, comment down there help a buddy out!

Uhhh... maybe I should do like a tribute post eh like whatever you wanna call it, uumm maybe a highlight of all those other 127 posts are all about and, blog stats?? BRO IDK.
OHH I KNOW I SHOULD POST IT ON THE (uhh nevermind)!! So like, 128th post on (uh life)... uhhh.. finds a way?
Soz my movie reference, can't handle those sometimes.

So you two mmm, hm, dig up- dig up dinosaurs? (I can do a very good impression of this line btw) YOU HAVE TO GET USED TO DR MALCOLM

My Precious

Hey people, what's up?

I was just going through some useless (like me) websites and clicking the bored button.
You wanna know what I really want right now? I want a Xavier's School for Gifted Youngsters t-shirt/sweater. I want the sweater the most though, just that one.
Honestly being a part of X-Men would be great, living in the X Mansion and being taught by Professor X. BUT HEY THAT'S THE INTERNET FOR YOU AND ON THE INTERNET MEMES ARE KEENG They're fictional.
I'll just get the sweater pls thx, and meet James McAvoy. Pl0x.

d r e a m d a d d y

Henlo hooman, what is up?
ZE SKY

MWHAHAHHAHAHAHA eViL LauGH
I'm so random today.
So what is actually up? Like, in my life. Well, tbh, not so much. I'm currently revisiting (by that I mean listening) to songs I used to listen to back then. I guess saying "back then" doesn't really count since technically the songs aren't really old.
Maybe what I'm trying to say is.. I'm listening to songs that I used to listen to, so much, but not anymore. Doesn't matter if the song is old or not so old idfc.

But the point is, I'm listening to some music.
That's basically it.
Hey, it's almost September... ARE YOU EXCITED FOR NOVEMBER?!?!

More Google cars

Hey people! What's up?

I mean, HELLO INTERNET (WTF THIS IS DAN'S THING) and WELCOME TO BEHIND THE MEME, where we take a look at the meaning and the origin of your favorite memes and treeends..! jk lol this isn't BTM.

You won't believe this.
You know that I mentioned once (or maybe a couple more times, and some subtle hints) that I live in Indonesia, a beautiful country.
Recently it was Indonesia's independence day, WE'VE BEEN FREE FOR 72 YEARS! Wooh!
Also *cough* to people saying that I don't love my country for always using English language you can flip off mkay...
LOL I'm not that rude. Didn't mean to be that rude.
But seriously, speaking English does not make me any less of a proud Indonesian.
We're going to talk about attentions, AND Dan and Phil!

Pick up a bag and fill it with things

Can I just rant first? :')

For these two posts I did this month, they were a flop.
The formatting was a huge flop, if you're early you should know what happened.
Just out of my control every format changes, from normal sized texts to smaller, and etc.
I'm super tired okay? So, let's try doing this less Kam style writing and more, proper.
Listen I TRIED writing the things on wordpad first for the last post, and STILL those craps happened.
MY GOODNESS how am I going to make this stop once and for all? It wasn't this hard before?

I know this isn't gonna be fun, this wouldn't probably be a long post anyway.
I'll try going back to my usual out of everyone's mind writing style in the next one.
MAYBE.Let's do it, screw this. I'm gonna be upset I can't be "ME" THROUGH PC :(

"Pick up a bag and fill it with things."

What's that?
It's a quote, I said to myself.
But just that one sentence and it would blast my mind off.
It reminds me of my childhood.