The Infinity Marvel Talks

Yo fam what is up
Cringey? duh

So for the last 2 posts I gave y'all a smol amount of post preview on the home page, now let me just try giving you more, hopefully. I mean so far I don't really know what to talk about... lol soz.

Um so let's talk about Infinity War, because I'm so hyped up about it, I know I gotta be patient, it's coming next year and we still have 2 MCU movies to see before it, Thor: Ragnarok and Black Panther. But OHHH man I'm just to hyped up of the fact that I'm gonna be seeing EVERY MARVEL HEROES TO DATE SHOWING UP IN ONE MOVIE!!!!!!!!!!!! AT LEAST THAT'S WHAT THEY SAID!! (Wait does that mean.... hold on "every Marvel heroes, not MCU does that mean we're going to see some X-Men??? Maybe all of them??? WHAT?!?!?!?!) THREE CHRISES TWO TOMS TWO PETERS WHAT THE HECC ELSE DID I MISS???

So yeah, Hype.

Kittens

Hey people what the fk is up Kyle?!?!
no, what'd you say?? wtf dude?! step tf up KYLE!!

Oh yea, I haven't told you about this...

Yes fam, I'm SH00K.

COUGH

I have something to say.

I'm g

What rhymes with "say"? Exactly.

I Live Somewhere Else

WOW, a lot happened...

D23, SDCC.

LOOK AT ALL THOSE EXPOS AND CONS I ALWAYS MISSED CUZ I LIVE SOMEWHERE ELSE

Just, great.

The point of this post is:
I CAN'T WAIT FOR INFINITY WAR!!!
Honestly, did you see the part when Kevin Feige announced (some of) the casts on D23 expo panel???

BUT I PUBLISHED ON APRIL (s28t happens)

Umm.. for some reason this post shows that I posted it on June 21, what the hecc?

I kinda put that one on draft for a long time from the mobile app.
WELL YOU'RE FOOKIN STUPID YOU BLOGGER MOBILE APP ALRIGHT WHY WON'T YOU UPDATE AND DO THINGS YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE DOING AND LIKE P R O P E R L Y

And now I've only realized that I have 7 posts on March and 3 on April.
THE TWO ON MARCH WERE SUPPOSED TO BE POSTED ON APRIL OKAY?! Wasn't my fault ok I tried, those were on draft until I publish those on APRIL.
A P R I L

Well, s28t happens right.

henlo fellow creatures

It is I, Kam.

I would like to apologize for the lack of posting these two months.

Please forgive me.

I will make it up to all of you. This month (*cough* hopefully) I am planning to post 7 more times. And for next month, I will post 6 times.

*because I only posted once last month and I only have posted once this month, so that means I'm currently missing 8 for these two months. I'll do 7 this month, and 5+1 for next month.

I understand that it means I might focus on quantity rather than quality but FOR THE SAKE OF IT MAN! Uhh so yeah some of the posts might be kinda pointless to read, maybe you wouldn't be able to read it at all, or it's probably gonna take just 2 seconds to read. But hey, this is how I try to get back into the game alright? I'm never giving up this one unless I have no time or I forgot to do it.

COME ON THE FORCE IS STRONG WITH ME I CAN DO IT HECC YEA

I need to get that commitment back.

Back for some more dankness;)

SO
Ok that one last post was daaamn scary ok holy crap
Idk what to say but let's get over it and get back to more monthly dankness
Ayyyy lmao

See this is so weird yknow like one post i'm all wise and heartwarming and deep and on the other one i'm all like
Dankiest dank piece of crap kek with all the random slices of pure memes and incorrect language and words and letters and stuff heheh amirite

Ok honestly am i that weird
No but yeah I AM LOOOOOOL

Speaking of dank things you know how dank it is to have all sorts of global dank emotes ON YO DISCORD
i have discord heh yeea you think i ain't a cool dank gamer???

I have, well, i guess, a lot of emote servers.
The twitch community servers also counts lol. Sorry for being a nobody.
You know, just there for the global emotes.

Also, apologize for not posting much, let's say, once a month when i'm supposed to post 5.
Listen i gotta give myself a goal for each month or else it ain't gonna work cuz i'm a non commital person
Did i spell that right

Anyway
I think that's it suddenly everything hurts so i gotta go see ya
And thanks for reading

-Kam's a nobody :(

When I was a kid...

When I was a very young kid, my aunt bought me a doll, then I told my mom, "Mom, I don't want this, I don't like it."

When I was a bit older my dad wanted to buy me a skirt, I said, "No, I don't want it, I don't like it, even if you buy it for me, I won't wear it."

When I was an older kid, I see boys, they look great. I wanted to look like them. I want a short hair, I want boys' clothes, I want to be just like them.

When my parents went to a clothing store, they asked me which one I like. I chose one, the one I really want, the one for boys. Or at least that's what they think.

I keep asking for boys' clothes.
I keep asking to cut my hair short.
I keep asking for toy cars.
So they gave me those.

You know how I felt?
I felt amazing.

I look into the mirror.
I was happy of how I look like, I finally looked like them.
I was happy I had cool toys, the ones that I liked.

Then years later, puberty comes.
I felt gross. I didn't like how I looked like.
My chest started to be more like women's chest. My hips got wider.
I hated my body.
I didn't even wear bras for years because I didn't like it, it's for women.

I also don't like when they call me "a beautiful girl" or "a pretty girl" I just feel uncomfortable, okay? Why won't you stop?

And I still feel that way.

I love short hair. I love masculine clothes. I love looking like guys.
I still hate my body.
I want to get rid of those thingys on my chest. I want my hips to get smaller.
I don't want this body. I didn't ask for it.

Even though I might feel comfortable at times mostly because I didn't care about my body. I still get dysphoria quite a lot at different times.
Do I wanna be a girl? Not really. Do I wanna fully transition into a guy? I don't think so. Though it'll be great but I don't think I can handle the process.

I'll just get a binder and I think everything will be alright.

So, what am I? Why do I feel this way? I still feel different. And you know what, I also like girls as much as I like guys. I don't even understand myself.

And parents, hey, shouldn't you already know? No, it's not a phase.
Hah, what? Really? It has always been like this for years and you still want to call it a phase?? Come on.

Yeah I'm still in the closet. Still scared.
I don't know what to say.
I'll probably just let them figure things out by themselves. I mean I've lived with them for years, since birth, they took most of the hints I dropped. They should already have at least a clue, that I'm different.

Yeah, no, not a phase, mom and dad. Figure it out already.

For parents out there with queer kids. I just want to let you know.
When they come out, please understand that, they come out, to be open with you, to feel safe and comfortable around you.
It's telling a truth, not changing themselves, they've always been like that, trust me. They just want you to love them more, to understand them more.
Please be accepting, if you can't, work it out, don't ever abandon them, they need you, always need you.

Love them with all your hearts.

And that's all I want to say.
I guess there will be no proper way of saying "okay it's done now have a great day, I'll be right back with more posts."
I just want people to understand.
If you can't, then respect others.
See ya.

-Kam is queer, get over it.