I've changed

do you realize that?

back in the day
when i was all weird and stuff
i was honestly completely weird but amazing

now?
look at me, knowing no capital letter, no jokes, no weird crap
depressed

what happened to me?
where's the self i used to be?
that one happy but slightly hiding sadness Kam that was 100% weird kind of amazing

now i'm all sad, where's my happiness?
where did it go?
look at this post i'm writing
where's the happiness, weirdness, all the jokes?

i used to see sadness as a temporary thing
and now,
is it true that happiness is the one that's temporary, and not sadness?

when am i gonna get my old self back?
the world may never know the answer of any of these questions.

-Kam in the darkness